Synopsis

A recently single dad can't stop his baby from crying in order to pray. Having lost confidence in his ability to raise his daughter alone, he impulsively begins the long car journey north to drop her off with his mother. What is Abid's relationship with his faith now that the person he converted (reverted) for has left, and can he reconceptualise his role as a single father, or will old habits resurface and continue to fracture his sense of self? This is a character who has lost his sense of identity, he has reinvented himself so many times he no longer knows who he is any more - the hedonist, the addict, the addict in recovery, the convert, the revert, and suddenly both mum and dad all in one... What is left of yourself when you change yourself and revolve so much around someone or something else? Then when you lose that centre of gravity, that person or thing that kept you in orbit, how do you begin to recalibrate and find your sense of self again? This is the story of a character who sets out to run away, yet again, by dropping his daughter off with his mother. His recuperation is hard as old traumas resurface, the origins of which we are fed in sonic scraps and intrusive flashes, but something shifts en route, and at a remote ferry terminal on the northernmost tip of the country, he finally begins to reconcile the past with the present. During that physical journey north, a series of small cumulative domestic moments occur, a chain reaction is set in motion, and he begins to understand the bigger picture, of what matters to him, so that by the end he is rooted in the present and able to connect to his daughter. Ultimately, he realises he has been trying to control something he is powerless over, and by admitting his own powerlessness, he can finally begin to let go.